I don’t know about you but issues that I thought I had worked through seem to be popping up as of late.  This time of year has a way of challenging me like no other.  Not only is it the complete change in daily schedules and being out 5 nights a week with kids’ sports but it is also the anniversary of the beginning of some dark times in my life including my father’s cancer diagnosis, my diagnosis, and his passing.  As a result I think, it tends to be the time of year when my confidence and sense of security gets rocked.

This June also happens to coincide with Mercury Retrograde.  I have come to understand that we are all going through a powerful shift in consciousness at this time on Earth and that celestial events do have a profound impact on our lives.  Mercury Retrograde scientifically is a time when the planet Mercury appears (optical illusion) to stop, and move backward.  This happens for a period of about 3 weeks, three to four times a year.  This is scientific fact but what is not as easily accepted is that during Mercury Retrograde we are being asked to revisit unfinished business and clear it out.  As a result of this focus on unfinished business, Mercury Retrograde tends not to be a great time for new beginnings and adventures.  Travel plans go awry, technology goes on the fritz, and communications between parties are muddled.    You have been warned 😉

I am grateful that I am aware of these types of phenomena because they help me to not take the bait when things seem to go wrong.  Nevertheless, old demons that I thought I had cleared are having a little fun with me.  Even in the arena of my health, just yesterday I was given some insights that made me question myself.  What I was advised was that I needed to switch up my supplements protocol to make a bigger dent in my healing. I was dismayed by this, not because it made me fearful but because I want this part of my experience to be done and I don’t want to pay for any more supplements!!   A year ago, I would have been down in the dumps for quite a while at this news.  As it often happens, this was delivered to me just before the kids got off the bus so I didn’t really have a chance to sit and process it.  A couple hours later I found myself at my son’s parent versus kid baseball game.  Frankly, I wasn’t in the mood to play baseball but I didn’t want to miss this rare event either.

I am aware that our level of consciousness is being raised at break neck speed and that if old issues are popping up, there isn’t much to do about them but instead to just let them pass by.  We don’t hold on to the good moments nearly as long as we hold onto the bad.  I guess that’s human nature but you don’t have to follow this paradigm.  These old issues are just illusions that we are getting a last glimpse of before they vanish.  Don’t engage…just observe.  I love the metaphor that life is a river and our job is to flow.  As you might expect, as we make our journey through life on the river, we pick up rocks along the way.  These rocks are insecurities, painful events, losses and heartbreak.  Too many of us pick up these rocks and proceed to carry them in our pockets as we continue with our journeys.  We identify with them and make them a part of us.  But eventually, we are no longer capable of flowing down the river because we are too weighted down.  We begin to drown.  But the solution is simple.  Drop the rocks. 

You might say easier said than done but I can tell you that I did just that last night.  I was carrying some boulders in my pockets and I had a choice.  I could let them drown me or I could empty my pockets and let the river of life continue to take me to my destiny…my life purpose.  I came home by myself from my son’s game and went to lay down (always a great way for me to center myself).  I applied Young Living’s Surrender oil to my temples, feet and heart.  I admitted that I did not have all the answers and that it was OK because I didn’t need to know the destination, I just needed to let myself flow down the river.  I found a wonderful meditation with the 528 Hz tone (a powerful frequency for love and healing) with the sound of a river flowing in the background.  I stopped thinking and found myself rather quickly back in the flow.  Insights and clarity returned to me once I dropped my rocks, my need for control of the situation, and I awoke this morning renewed, went to watch the sunrise and felt deeply peaceful that all is indeed well.

We often make things so much harder for ourselves then they need to be.  No matter what these rocks represent to you they were never meant to be carried.  You can’t make a situation any better by holding onto it.  If you find issues coming up for you that you thought you were done with, why not try emptying them like rocks in your pockets?  You know deep down that it isn’t doing you any good to carry them.  You KNOW this!  Find an activity that centers you.  Meditate, walk in nature, give your concerns to God, go to sleep, or exercise – but not to the point of punishing yourself!   Don’t struggle to keep your head above water, just drop what is weighing you down and envision yourself flowing down a lazy river, watching the scenery go by and enjoying the peaceful flow.